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Confessions of a struggling Blogger


For a while now, I have been fiddling with lots of blog ideas, which didn’t quite germinate into blog posts. No, I don’t want to write about my neighbor’s new cat, or drone about miseries at work. Yeah, the budget was out a while back, but its not making a hell of a difference to me. And when Cricket and Politics are not exactly your favorite topics, does the junta care about anything else??  😛

Jokes apart, I know something is wrong with me. I can sense it. And yes, the right description for my predicament is:  “I am stuck!!!”

Many times we get stuck in whatever we are doing. Stuck because we are too contended doing it, stuck because we do not want to put more effort, stuck because we do not want to move out of our comfort zone. But the problem is, unless you crawl out of your comfort zone, there is very little chance to produce anything outstanding.

I came across this realization some time back. I have been doing these bits and pieces of writing. It is like a good time pass for me, involves some interesting cerebration. But it’s almost always according to my comfort level. I write when I feel good.. I write when I can experience the steady inflow of thoughts. I write when it suits me.

And I don’t push myself.

I do not challenge my limits. I do not try to attempt the unachievable. I do not cringe and whimper when I cannot come up with anything worthwhile. I don’t want to stress myself. I play it easy.
And that is where I go wrong. I know I am OK, but I am not excellent. And I am not even trying to be! That’s where I am stuck and will perhaps be stuck forever if I don’t make the move.

I need a stinging motivation. Some burning ambition that will not let me sleep. That‘s the only way to crawl out of this rut.

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Random thots…


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First things first.. and I ask myself.. why Blog??

This is the first question which came to my mind when I began writing this.. Hmm.. well.. To organize my thoughts, pen down what I think and capture it on some media.. To give a disciplined outlet to the millions and billions of ideas that keep buzzing inside my mind, until they slowly wander and fade away.. A way to understand how exactly I feel and think about the things that go on around me.. An attempt to be an informed observer, and not a silent spectator for events that affect my life.. Starting with all the small things happening in Bangalore.. the fuel shortages, power cuts, bad traffic, pollution etc etc.. And then, zooming out to the bigger picture. The Bangalore and Ahmedabad bomb blasts, the sudden fear of terrorists much closer home now, the Olympic games, the fiercely debated nuclear deal, the cash for vote scam, stock market.. In fact, all the bits and pieces of news that keep filtering out of newspapers and pervading our living rooms.. All things happening around which I have no control on.. Things that I do not like, but cannot change.. Things which I appreciate, but have no way to express..

Of course, there is so much of life which is beyond my control!.. Yet, amidst all this, there is one thing that I can change, and completely own.. And that one thing is my independent opinion..No one can steal or take it away from me.. So, in spite of being just a small speck in this eternity, I still have the power to think, express my opinion.. and that should be quite meaningful inspiration for me to Blog!! 😀