For a while now, I have been fiddling with lots of blog ideas, which didn’t quite germinate into blog posts. No, I don’t want to write about my neighbor’s new cat, or drone about miseries at work. Yeah, the budget was out a while back, but its not making a hell of a difference to me. And when Cricket and Politics are not exactly your favorite topics, does the junta care about anything else?? 😛
Jokes apart, I know something is wrong with me. I can sense it. And yes, the right description for my predicament is: “I am stuck!!!”
Many times we get stuck in whatever we are doing. Stuck because we are too contended doing it, stuck because we do not want to put more effort, stuck because we do not want to move out of our comfort zone. But the problem is, unless you crawl out of your comfort zone, there is very little chance to produce anything outstanding.
I came across this realization some time back. I have been doing these bits and pieces of writing. It is like a good time pass for me, involves some interesting cerebration. But it’s almost always according to my comfort level. I write when I feel good.. I write when I can experience the steady inflow of thoughts. I write when it suits me.
And I don’t push myself.
I do not challenge my limits. I do not try to attempt the unachievable. I do not cringe and whimper when I cannot come up with anything worthwhile. I don’t want to stress myself. I play it easy.
And that is where I go wrong. I know I am OK, but I am not excellent. And I am not even trying to be! That’s where I am stuck and will perhaps be stuck forever if I don’t make the move.
I need a stinging motivation. Some burning ambition that will not let me sleep. That‘s the only way to crawl out of this rut.